365

Three hundred and sixty five days ago
I wasn't asleep at this
time
either.

Three hundred and sixty five days ago
I laid awake in bed
talking, talking, talking
about the son
that would join us in
12
short
hours.
About the
journey
that it took to get us to that night,
and about the one we were going to
begin.

Three hundred and sixty five days ago
I wondered
what you would look like,
what you would feel like,
what you would smell like,
what you would sound like.

Three hundred and sixty five days ago
I was filled with
anxiety
and excitement.

Three hundred and sixty five days ago
I said
goodbye
to the only life
that I had ever known with the
rising of
that sun -
and said
hello
to a new life with the
sounds
of your very first cry.

Three hundred and sixty five days ago
You became the
love of my life
the center of my universe -
A life
that I would without
hesitation
lay down my own for.
You gave my life a
greater
purpose
an intention,
a reason.
Something bigger than
myself.
Than us.

Three hundred and sixty five days ago
You gave me a new
name.
Rooted deep with
responsibility,
dreams,
hopes,
that I had never known
until that moment.

Three hundred and sixty five days ago
You became a
teacher
to all the things that
I never knew
I didn't know.
You humbled me.
You still
do.

It has been three hundred and sixty five days
of
learning & laughter
fascination & exhaustion
tears & sighs
tickles & giggles
fears & frustrations
Mama's & Dada's
kisses & hugs
giggles & wiggles
screaming & kicking
lost tempers
early mornings
countless cups of coffee -
made memories,
tender moments
Of lessons learned
and
lessons to be learned.

Its three hundred and sixty five days
that I would never
trade
barter
or wish away
even at its hardest.

Every
single
night
- all three hundred and sixty five of them
I have looked at you
asleep
and thanked you for this life.
For your smile
your spirit
your tenacity
your
laugh.
For your sweet Mama's
and lingering hugs.
For the
chance
to be the
mother
to such a wonderful
tiny
human being.
For
you.

Happy Birthday Sullivan.