Two weeks

I can't believe that Sully has already been here for 2 weeks. He blended into our family, our routines, our lives so effortlessly its like he's always been here with us. Each day it gets a little harder to even remember what life was like before him, mainly because we can't possibly imagine life without him now.

The surgery went well, no complications of any kind, and looking back now it seems a little silly how nervous I was the night before and that day. The nurses weren't kidding when they said the hardest part was the iv. I'm not scared of needles, but christ almighty even I have to draw a line after 12 tries. Yes, 12. It took 2 nurses, a phlebologist and an anesthesiologist 12 tries to finally get an iv going, and they only stopped at 12 after they finally listened to me and just took it out of my hand. Honestly, the spinal block needle was nothing compared to that damn iv. Fourteen days later and I still look like a junkie hard up for some magic sauce. The scrubs Shaun was given were great for some comic relief (the shirt fit but the pants not so much). They didn't leave much to the imagination and were about 6 inches too short and looked like he was going to hulk out of them at any given time.

Spinal blocks are great! Two minutes after they put it in I had no feeling from my chest down, such a weird feeling! I was so amazed by the fact I couldn't move anything that I didn't even realize they had started. Once I did though, Shaun did such a great job of keeping me calm and laughing up to the very second they pulled him out. When Shaun stood up to see Sully for the first time the room was quiet and then all you heard was Shaun yell "OH CRAP!". He doesn't remember, which makes it that more amusing. The next thing I remember was my doctor telling me what a perfect head Sully had, and how he was never going to come naturally with how he was positioned, and then Shaun telling me how much hair he had followed by the nurses telling me how beautiful he was and another saying how big he was - still all without me seeing him yet.

And then I waited for what seemed like forever. Shaun was back down by my face and we both held our breath. I remember telling Shaun "Just cry" - and as if on cue, he did. With that single cry every single negative pregnancy test over the years, all the heartache and doubt, the loses and what ifs ... all the doctors visits, the stupid medicines, the 9 months of anxiety and worry - were worth all of to be in that moment - and it took my breath away. He was here, he was healthy, and nothing else mattered.

My doctor later joked about how we had quite the entourage in the hospital waiting for us during our hospital stay, and he was right. The moments were few and far between that friends and family weren't there with us, all hours and well over the amount we were allowed to have at one time, which the hospital was totally cool about. Thank you to eveyone who came to see us - and those of you who couldn't make it that kept our phones blowing up - we feel so blessed to have so many people who already love this little guy and came to welcome him!

So, Sullivan. I'm not even sure where to start. He's pretty much the raddest thing we've ever done or had. Since day one he's been holding his head up, and pushes off with his super human legs. We call them frog leaps. He loves to eat and sleep (he is a baby AND a Curtis afterall, a deadly combination). His face is super animated, and gas bubbles or not, he smiles and laughs a ton so I'm counting it. He rarely cries, and when he gets pissed he growls. His jaundice has cleared up and he's gaining weight at a good, steady pace now (he lost quite a bit in th hospital, more than he should have) and looks a hell of a lot like his daddy. I take credit for the mile long eyelashes and perfect head though. He loves to talk to people - he'll babble for hours at you. And he sleeps perfectly! Usually 5 hours at a time at night. People keep asking Shaun and I how we're holding up and how tired we are but honestly we're not - he's been so easy. He' already gone to a sit down dinner with us and short errands and he's perfect everytime.

I feel better every day and am looking forward to being all healed and given the go ahead so I can start doing more things. Shaun and I are enjoying this time we all have together and are doing our best to live in the moment right now getting to know this new little person in our lives - learning something new about him each day and ourselves and just hoping it won't slip by us too quickly, even though we know it will.