Goodnight moon

The kiddo is finally asleep in his crib, so before Shaun and I dump ourselves into our own bed and pass out from the throws of exhaustion, I'll catch everyone up, not that theres a whole lot that had changed.

We know why now parents say theres no way to explain how difficult and rewarding having a baby is, its just something you have to go through to understand - and they're so right. Theres no classification for this form of tired - I haven't seen the white of my eyes in weeks. They just range anywhere between red to pink on a good day. The little bugger gave us a good two week run before deciding to be up all hours of the night - and he HATES being put down which usually means one of us is holding him until our arms go dead. Theres worse things in the world though than cuddles, so everything else has just been put on the back burner. Putting things off isn't something I'm great at doing, but I'm finding that theres no better reason than Sully for saying eff it to a lot of things and just letting it go to instead be with him. His next doctor appointment will be at 2 months and at his last weigh in (2 weeks ago now) he was a little over 10 lbs and 23 inches long. We think he's about 11 lbs plus now and probably another inch, inch and half longer. We've had to put him into 3 month clothes because a lot of the 0-3 range are just too short for the poor kid. He has started to give these big belly giggles and laughs in his sleep, so needless to say we can't wait till he starts doing it when he's up. He smiles and babbles, and more than not sits up really well on his own. He still has moments where his head looks like a little rag dolls, but I can't blame him - that head is huge and has to make up for at least 1/3 of his body weight! And you'd swear we were mudering this kid when we change him - but the second you snap that new diaper on he's fine and babbling and laughing again. I often ask him if he's bipolar. I've started teaching basic baby signs even though he just thinks I'm playing with him, and we like to read stories together. Sometimes he listens and sometimes he just screams. He loves music though - his favs are Bob Marley and Jack Johnson. He'll sit for a good hour just listening. Its not suprising though since we sang Marley to him all the time when he was still in my tummy and I listened to Jack Johnson almost everyday in my car and at work with him when he was still inside. He doesn't respond to other stuff like those two - not that he doesn't like it, but you can def see a sense of familiarity come over his face when he hears certain songs. Amazing.

He had his first official photography session for his one month photos with the super nice Julie West. She sent us a sneak preview of the proofs we get to see on Wednesday, and needless to say I'm really excited. He was a pistol to photograph, constantly moving and just wanted to talk rather than sleep. She kept saying she couldn't believe he was only 5 weeks old. It made for some wonderful candid moments though (that kid loves to show off his boys ... everyone ultrasound we have and now these!). He also pissed on her set - yeh, thats my kid. I can't wait to share those with everyone. (Not the pee, the pictures) I'm hoping a few will end up working out nicely for his birth annoucements.

My first mother's day was fun and low key. Shaun got me cards, flowers (from him and Sully of course) and a necklace that I wanted of a peace dove with a olive branch made of diamonds. Its super purdy and I love it! (Thanks hun! And thanks Sam for showing him which one it was!) My sister got me a balloon and my mom gave it an effort with some bath towels for the new bathroom as a gift (that I returned and got clothes with, sorry Mom!) Shaun also took care of Sully all that morning and let me sleep in. I can't wait for father's day now. Shaun is so great with Sully and I love watching them together. I call him Mister Mom - he's so involved and comfortable being hands on with him and helpful. We've really seem to of found a balance between the two of us, with everything except sleep so far - which we're trying to figure out and adjust to. Naps ... lots of naps.

Shaun's dad and stepmom were here and gone, which is crazy because I can't believe how fast the time went. They got to spend a lot of time hanging out with Sully - and we got some great video footage and pictures. We were able to get out to dinner all together (Sully was a trooper), and they shopped quite a bit for the little guy while they were out here (spoiled kid). We were really sad to see them have to go, Shaun taking it a little harder of course, but we're going to try really hard to get to Texas for Thanksgiving. Thats our goal.

With what little downtime theres has been, I've started scrapbooking a book for Sully of his birth story. Its fun and passes time but holy jesus I can see how some people can get crazy into it. There are so many things dedicated to it. I'm starting off small and working my way up to things on an as need basis. I also love taking pictures of Sully with our new camera which I LOVE. Its hard using just a regular ol digital point and click after - the pictures just don't come out the same. We're also getting ready for Hillary's baby shower this Sunday (yay!). It'll be fun to catch up and see everyone since its been since Sully's birth tha we've seen some of them.

My folks headed off to Alaska today. They called earlier to let us know they had landed safely in Vancouver. They won't be back for 3 weeks, and I thought my mom was going to have a heart attack leaving Sully. Its nice though having everyone gone. Don't get me wrong, I love my folks, but I also love having some space right now. I feel like the past month we've had to share our baby with everyone, and I'm looking forward to finally having some quiet down time with him and Shaun.

Sam, Shaun and I all start diets tomorrow, so wish us luck! I have 30 lbs to lose to get back to where I was before Sully, and probably another 30 more to be satisfied with my weight overall. I gained almost 60 lbs with that kid, but I lost 27 lbs within 3 weeks, so now its time to get my butt in gear and get the rest off. We ditched everything out of the house today and are going on a strict no carb, all protien and veggie diet. I'm excited to get focused again. It'll give me something to work on while I'm off work.

Speaking of work prop 1D did not pass (woo hoo) so it looks like I have a job to head back to ... not that I'm super excited about that. I thought going back wouldn't phase me a whole lot since I like working and keeping busy, but the more I think about having to return the more sad I get, so I try not to think about it too much right now. He's grown so much already I worry about missing things - that and I just love spending time with him. But like everyone says - no point in stressing about that right now since I don't go back till the end of July. Just enjoy what I can while I have it.

Shaun has headed to bed, which is my cue to probably catch some Z's too. We're dog sitting so I better wrangle up the herd and get them ready for bed too. I'm not even going to review and spellcheck - hah.

Goodnight!